Our Government Story Part 1

November 1, 2015


A lot has changed since my last post.  I have not gotten to go back to Africa.  Right now I'm scared I will never get to leave the continent again.  Why?  Well, my husband isn't cool with me going alone.  And he can't get a passport.


Which brings me to the reason for this post.  A way to vent about our situation.  We are considering going public with our story, probably on facebook, as one young lady in Texas already has. My husband is a wonderful man and perfect for me.  We've been married for almost 5 months.  There's one small problem... Well, sometimes it feels small, or at a time like this a giant mountain in the way, that the Lord still hasn't moved.


My husband was born in a unique family.  They stayed away from government intrusion, had their babies at home, homeschooled their kids, didn't give them medical care, and didn't take them to church.  Although, they had very strong, unique, messianic beliefs. 


Since he was born at home, a birth certificate was never filed, and he never had a social security card.  The Lord granted us success and we finally got his delayed birth certificate in January of this year.  Getting a social security card has been much more difficult.  On the advice of an attorney, we have tried for a passport.  The State Department is asking for more information.  Apparently they didn't read the letter with all our info, or they just sent us a stupid form letter.  The social security Administration did the same thing:


Federal Agency: "We need the following documents......early public records."


Us: "There are no early public records."  And we explain why.


Federal Agency: "Well, we're not going to deny you.  We'll give you a letter stating what documents we need."


Us: "But we just told you those documents don't exist."


Federal Agency: "When you have those documents, we can process your application."


Us:  "The documents don't exist."


Apparently, logic is not part of the requirement for some federal government jobs.  Scary!

How Do I Live Let Me Count the Ways

My thoughts in March 2008

It is the family and friends who are missing from my life or whose relationships with me have changed, that I've been thinking about lately. These changes and other things that the Father is doing are really causing me to think, pray, read, search, and write. Sometime I also choose to run. By run I mean try to forget, not think, something so I don't have to feel the hurt. Sometimes when the potter shapes the clay it hurts, well it does when the clay (a.k.a. human being) is alive. How alive are you??

Alomst everyone has used coping mechaisms to get through their life. Drugs, alcolhol, TV, books, fantasty, porn, lust, sports, music. These things we use to cope can become our God. His word says that idoltry. One person may use romance novels to cope another may use drugs. According to the world, the drugs are illegal, but not the romance novels. According to God, both are wrong.

My thoughts in October of 2011

As I look back at what I wrote in 2008 and reflect on the events of the last 3 and 1/2 years, I have new thoughts to share. Books, TV, sports, music, and movies (that edify you) in moderation are fine. We all need a break. But when we take break after break and it turns into hiding, that is a different story. Hiding, checking out, addiction, running - we use this type of behavior to block things out out. Those things could be hurt, pain, emotions etc..

Over the last three years I've come to understand my own battle with the behavior I call hiding or checking-out. The Lord has shown me where this behavior pattern started and how to begin breaking the cycle. For me, it had to do with being overwhelmed be tasks, people, and emotions. When I couldn't process certain events or emotions, I would hide.

I've gotten better. Do I still struggle? Yes. Are there times when I realize I am hiding and I must STOP, TURN, and RUN into HIS ARMS? Yes. Are there times when I want to hide and instead I choose to run to GOD with it? Oh, Yeah! Praise God!

The bottom line is this: God is our creator and we must take everything to Him. Everything - tasks, relationships, emotions, hurt, fears. To use anything else to excess in order to cope with life is sin. Because we are not trusting Him.

I urge you today to trust Him-Yeshua (Jesus) your Savior with everything. Run into His Arms my friend. Cry if you need to. Let it go. Ask Him what to do. He faithfull to answer. Yes, it is not a quick fix. It will be a process as He shows you how to come to Him rather than your old way of doing things. Blessings on your journey.

Romans 12:2 I Corinthians 13:11 Ephesians 4:22-24

Almost Home - A Poem

I am almost home
but I am not sure I want to be
Sitting in New York
awaiting a flight to Phoenix
very tired
challenged
prayful
trying to keep my to-do list at bay
for one more day
not sure where my heart is
which continent?
Still praying